Sunday confessions.

This edition of Sunday confessions will be served with a side of bitter thoughts and stale ass attitude.

My eating habits were HORRIBLE. So horrible that I had to use caps lock.

I didn’t go to the gym at all this week. Didn’t even bother to go for any walks or do any exercise at home.

I ate a banana at Walmart and didn’t pay for it. I didn’t have the money and I was starving (I plan on buying an extra banana next time and just leaving it).

I hated my fiancé about 10 times this week and fantasized about smashing his phone over his huge head.

I did something that maybe wasn’t very nice.

I rolled my eyes again at my friend’s pictures and wished they were in my position for a second.

I also wished I had made better choices.

I said I would post pictures tomorrow and I will but I’m fatter than ever. Like I mentioned in my previous post I’m an emotional eater and right now I’m just eating to forget.

I’m not even hungry but there I am just staring aimlessly into the fridge, grabbing junk, and stuffing my face. It’s like I don’t care anymore but I do.

I swear I want this lifestyle change. I want to be fit and healthy. I want to be able to have self-control, will power… How is it that even after hitting rock bottom on so many levels I still can’t say enough?

I keep saying and promising that tomorrow will be better, this week will be better, hoping that something will happen…

Maybe tomorrow will be different.

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The good, the bad, the cheese.

Quick confessions:

I started watching Vampire Diaries (I’m almost 30), I like it.

I had frozen yogurt with 3 brownie bites.

I had cheese and then a little bit more cheese last week.

I’m jealous of all my child-less friends who finished school and got their lives together.

I roll my eyes when I see pictures of them having the best time ever in Vegas, Europe, South America…

I hate being poor.

My car broke down yesterday because I don’t have enough stress in my life. I figure all I can do is take a deep breath, write it out, work it out, and be thankful for everything I do have.

My motto for the week is eat clean, train dirty.

I may not have control over a lot of things going on in my life right now but I do have control over my body. I will eat healthy, train hard, and love like there’s no tomorrow.